It's times like these...

I really thought long and hard about whether or not to post this. I don't want this to turn into a "pity-party or poor me" post but I needed to share some experiences that I have had.

In August we found out that we were having a baby. We were scared (5 kids!!) but SO excited. We waited a while and then told a few people, mainly friends and family.

Last Friday we went for our 12 week and to hear our lil' baby's heartbeat and found out then that we had lost our baby. It was hard and I cried (a lot) that weekend. It was a shock because I had had no signs of mis-carriage. We had to deliver some heart breaking news to some devastated big sisters-to-be. Then we had to contemplate a tough decision- whether to wait for nature to take it's course or to have a D&C. Now like I said, I am not sharing this because I want your sympathy but more to share what I learned.

In the hours, days and time that passed, our family was the recipient of so many blessings, phone calls of support and love and visits "just to see if we needed anything". Love came so strongly that I can't tell you what it meant to us. Justin and I have always felt that we have been very blessed by way of our family and friends and the support that they give to us but we now know what a true blessing they are to us. We are so very grateful.

As the time came to decide what we were to do I had a very special blessing given to me. I was surrounded by family and could feel the prayers that had been said in my behalf.

Yesterday I had the D&C. It was scary and not something that I would ever like to do again but I can already tell that I am healing. It is still hard to think that we no longer get a new baby in April but it is easier with the love that I have been shown. It is not easy for me to accept this much help. I told Justin that I didn't know what I would have done with out it and he said that we are lucky to have such great family and friends. I agree- Thanks to all of you who have been there to help me and my family in our time of need. We love you all.

Happy Birthday Parker!!

Today you turned four. I can't believe it. You are sweet and cuddly and and a whirlwind all in one. You are smart (too smart) for your own good. You make me laugh with the things that you say (and cry sometimes with the things that you do...) You are unstoppable and you could fly to the moon if you want to.
I can't help it if you are a crazy adorable boy. It is who you are. It is hopefully who you will always be.
You are a great Big Brother (when you feel like it) and I can tell how great of friends you and your brother are going to be.
But Parker- you have to stop eating his food!


So here's to my sweet, crazy little man. Have a Happy Birthday! You deserve it!

Our Lil' Soccer Star

Megan started playing soccer and she LOVES it. She is really good too! She is little and quick and has some great kicks. (but I am biased cuz I am her Mom!)
She has been playing goalie during the past couple of games and does well with that too. She had 8 saves in one game. She is her Soccer loving Dad's dream come true!
Good Job Maggie!

Preschool is FINALLY here!

After weeks and weeks of Parker waiting as patiently as a three year old can....
Preschool has started and he could not be happier!
Parker and Miss Lindy.
He loves her!
One of his school buddies and best cousin friend Brinnley.
This is how sad TJ was that he didn't get to stay.
I hate his big man tears. They get me every time!

First Day of School!

Megs is in FIRST Grade! I can't believe it!
The cutest girls at our house, ready for the bus to come...
Sadie the Big THIRD Grader- Can she be that old?!?
essentials for school- you have to have a cool backpack!